i feel the greater part of me wants to give up on my challenge and just write a letter a day, to no particular person. for today, i'll just write little notes to the unnamed people. ya down, brah? (:
-thanks for being there for me and helping me through all of the garbage i've shared with you. it means a lot to know i am fortunate enough to have found a friend like you. i would trade anything for my bestest friend (:
-i know sometimes you think it's funny to make me the joke of the party, and even though i know you don't mean anything by it, it still hurts. my feelings get crushed everytime you think it's 'funny' to make fun of me. i'd greatly appreciate if you could find something new to joke about, please'n'thanks.
-i said i wanted to stay friends with you, but after hearing about the stuff you're trying to spread about me, i don't know if i can. it would kill me in every way possible if it came to that, but i can't put myself in anymore crappy situations. you think i have no mind of my own, the same with my best friend, and about numerous others too. just an fyi, i do have my own mind, you're just upset that MY mind said no to you. i wanted to try things again, but honestly, i deserve so much more thanomeone who talks crap about me behind my back. that was a punch in the gut. for sure. i expected more from you.
-i finally know what you felt. i finally know what hell i put you through. i'm so so sorry. like i told you before, if i could take it back, i would. the only reason i didn't leave at first is because i actually did have feelings for you. nobody believed me, they said i was trying to fool myself. i wasn't. i mean that from te bottom of my heart. i know why you did what you did, and i feel the pain you went through. it sucks, bad. you've given me a new appreciation.
i think that's enough for now. i'm gonna write more tomorrow. <3
"Dreams are illustrations... from the book your soul is writing about you." ->as told by marsha norman. enjoy loves.
August 13, 2011
August 12, 2011
day four;
*your parents.
just to make a slight change, my parent. not plural. singular.
my mom is my life. she is my best friend, my back bone, my support system, etc. she has been there for me through EVERYTHING. she has dug me out of so many ruts that i couldn't have overcome by myself.
-something or someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else; origin or source.
she is my caretaker and protector to the max. my mom won't let anyone do me wrong in any way. she hasn't ever let me down, and i doubt she ever will.
i just wanna thank you, momma, for being there for me and supporting me 100%. i love you!
toodles, (:
just to make a slight change, my parent. not plural. singular.
my mom is my life. she is my best friend, my back bone, my support system, etc. she has been there for me through EVERYTHING. she has dug me out of so many ruts that i couldn't have overcome by myself.
-something or someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else; origin or source.
she is my caretaker and protector to the max. my mom won't let anyone do me wrong in any way. she hasn't ever let me down, and i doubt she ever will.
i just wanna thank you, momma, for being there for me and supporting me 100%. i love you!
toodles, (:
August 10, 2011
day three;
*your first love.
"maybe i know somewhere, deep in my soul, that love never lasts."
for now, love isn't eternal. i'm still young and in the process of finding my true soul mate. there's no rush in the process, and to be completely honest, i'm not ready. i'm not ready to leave everything i have and to put my whole heart into love. i can hand out my "love" to many, many people and it not mean a thing. my heart aches at the thought that i can oh so carelessly hand it out and not be affected by it. my outlook on everything is that nothing is permanent and mistakes are made.
my first love was my best friend. he was there for me through every little detail of my life, thick and thin. i thought the world of him. he was my everything, and i was his. i gave him my heart and vice versa. everything was perfect. i guess all that happened was that we grew apart. i'm not really sure. all i know is that my first love was great and i wouldn't change it for the world.
toodles, (:
"maybe i know somewhere, deep in my soul, that love never lasts."
for now, love isn't eternal. i'm still young and in the process of finding my true soul mate. there's no rush in the process, and to be completely honest, i'm not ready. i'm not ready to leave everything i have and to put my whole heart into love. i can hand out my "love" to many, many people and it not mean a thing. my heart aches at the thought that i can oh so carelessly hand it out and not be affected by it. my outlook on everything is that nothing is permanent and mistakes are made.
my first love was my best friend. he was there for me through every little detail of my life, thick and thin. i thought the world of him. he was my everything, and i was his. i gave him my heart and vice versa. everything was perfect. i guess all that happened was that we grew apart. i'm not really sure. all i know is that my first love was great and i wouldn't change it for the world.
toodles, (:
August 9, 2011
intermission;
intermission from my 30 days. it never hurt to write more than one time in a day, did it? (:
do i regret what i did? yes. a lot.
do i feel my end decision is for the better? yes. i feel like in the end, we need time. i feel like in the long run, a little space will help us keep our friendship. had i not made the decision i made, our friendship would've been completely lost. i feel like garbage about it, but that's that.
does my heart hurt? like you'd never know. most every piece of me is telling me that what i did was wrong and that i should just take it back. my heart, the one part of me that is telling me otherwise, is telling me that everything will be okay.
i'm not sure what to do anymore. i hurt, i'm tired, i need to sleep.
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do i regret what i did? yes. a lot.
do i feel my end decision is for the better? yes. i feel like in the end, we need time. i feel like in the long run, a little space will help us keep our friendship. had i not made the decision i made, our friendship would've been completely lost. i feel like garbage about it, but that's that.
does my heart hurt? like you'd never know. most every piece of me is telling me that what i did was wrong and that i should just take it back. my heart, the one part of me that is telling me otherwise, is telling me that everything will be okay.
i'm not sure what to do anymore. i hurt, i'm tired, i need to sleep.
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day two;
*nicknames
oh goodness. nicknames are a big one. i've been called many, many things in my life, some not so good, but others amazing. first and foremost, i'd like to give credit to my best friend at the time, in 7th grade-ish, for giving me the nickname (spelling changed) that i still use today:
-BREE!
it used to be bre, thanks to the family (:, but she made it have two e's. it felt more me, more different.
one of my best friends from freshman year, sophomore year, and now this year gave me another nickname. i'm not sure how it came up, but it did:
-PUMPKIN!
on day while sitting in a car, two of my friends and i decided that we were all secretly related. it was said that we had the same mother and a daddy from south africa. we got traits from both, although none of us look alike (:
-SOUTH AFRICAN SISTA!
i'm pretty sure that's all of the. unlike some people, i stick with very few names. if anyone wants to give me more so i can add to my list, be happy to. i'm open for options (:
toodles, (:
oh goodness. nicknames are a big one. i've been called many, many things in my life, some not so good, but others amazing. first and foremost, i'd like to give credit to my best friend at the time, in 7th grade-ish, for giving me the nickname (spelling changed) that i still use today:
-BREE!
it used to be bre, thanks to the family (:, but she made it have two e's. it felt more me, more different.
one of my best friends from freshman year, sophomore year, and now this year gave me another nickname. i'm not sure how it came up, but it did:
-PUMPKIN!
on day while sitting in a car, two of my friends and i decided that we were all secretly related. it was said that we had the same mother and a daddy from south africa. we got traits from both, although none of us look alike (:
-SOUTH AFRICAN SISTA!
i'm pretty sure that's all of the. unlike some people, i stick with very few names. if anyone wants to give me more so i can add to my list, be happy to. i'm open for options (:
toodles, (:
August 8, 2011
day one;
*introduce yourself, 15 interesting facts.
hey there, i'm breana nicole burris, one-of-a-kind, 16 year old girl in the process of figuring out who i am. my life revolves arould music, 100%. my personality is hard to come by and a lot to handle. wanna know 15 TOTALLY INTERESTING facts about me? here they are: (:
1. a part of my book collection (which is over 300 now) consists of almost 40 chicken soup books.
2. i named my cat after the slave in to kill a mockingbird (calpurnia, only i spelled it kalpurnia) as a joke, but it stuck, so now my cat is a house slave. (:
3. i name everything. stuffed animals, instruments, and i even helped my sister pick out a name for my brother-in-law's radar detector.
4. i hate texting. pretty much every moment of every day, i'm seen with my phone, but i really couldn't care less about texting.
5. although it may not seem like it because i joke around all the time, a lot of little things that are meant to be taken as a joke hurt me. i try not to show it often because i don't want people to think i'm a cry baby.
6. musicals are my addiction. i'll watch any musical and fall in love with it. i think it's partially because of the fact that i'm so musically oriented and everything i do revolves around music.
7. given the chance, i wouldn't leave home for anything. if i were offered $1,000 to move out for a year, i couldn't do it.
8. i always envied people that could draw. ever since i was little, i've tried drawing, but i just never got the hang of it.
9. my hair is my art canvas. i'm willing to do pretty much anything to it, knowing that it'll grow back on day.
10. the one thing i try not to be is conceited. i cannot stand people that think super highly of themselves and i'd do anything not to be like them. having self-confidence is one thing, but being cocky is another.
11. i hate being in the silence at night. i always go to sleep with music because i'm afraid i'll hear a creak or something, and then i won't be able to sleep for the rest of the night.
12. i exaggerate about most things. i feel like if i'm telling a story and it doesn't have any spice to it, i need to make it more interesting. my way of doing that is exaggerating about things. i can't help it, it's just what i do. (:
13. the only reason i stay up late at night is because i feel like sleeping wastes away time. i want to be awake and conscious as much as i can.
14. as much as i say i'm a cat person, i don't think i'm an animal person at all. after getting a dog, i realized that i'm not fond of the. the same thing happened when i got my cat.
15. i'm embarressed to tell people my dog's name (wizzer), so i usually just tell them his middle name (dale). whenever i do tell people his real name, they think i say wizard, so i feel a bit better about it. even though he came named, i feel like people will think i named him and judge me for it.
wow, i'm surprised i cam up with 15 interesting things. (well, i think they're interesting at least).
toodles, (:
hey there, i'm breana nicole burris, one-of-a-kind, 16 year old girl in the process of figuring out who i am. my life revolves arould music, 100%. my personality is hard to come by and a lot to handle. wanna know 15 TOTALLY INTERESTING facts about me? here they are: (:
1. a part of my book collection (which is over 300 now) consists of almost 40 chicken soup books.
2. i named my cat after the slave in to kill a mockingbird (calpurnia, only i spelled it kalpurnia) as a joke, but it stuck, so now my cat is a house slave. (:
3. i name everything. stuffed animals, instruments, and i even helped my sister pick out a name for my brother-in-law's radar detector.
4. i hate texting. pretty much every moment of every day, i'm seen with my phone, but i really couldn't care less about texting.
5. although it may not seem like it because i joke around all the time, a lot of little things that are meant to be taken as a joke hurt me. i try not to show it often because i don't want people to think i'm a cry baby.
6. musicals are my addiction. i'll watch any musical and fall in love with it. i think it's partially because of the fact that i'm so musically oriented and everything i do revolves around music.
7. given the chance, i wouldn't leave home for anything. if i were offered $1,000 to move out for a year, i couldn't do it.
8. i always envied people that could draw. ever since i was little, i've tried drawing, but i just never got the hang of it.
9. my hair is my art canvas. i'm willing to do pretty much anything to it, knowing that it'll grow back on day.
10. the one thing i try not to be is conceited. i cannot stand people that think super highly of themselves and i'd do anything not to be like them. having self-confidence is one thing, but being cocky is another.
11. i hate being in the silence at night. i always go to sleep with music because i'm afraid i'll hear a creak or something, and then i won't be able to sleep for the rest of the night.
12. i exaggerate about most things. i feel like if i'm telling a story and it doesn't have any spice to it, i need to make it more interesting. my way of doing that is exaggerating about things. i can't help it, it's just what i do. (:
13. the only reason i stay up late at night is because i feel like sleeping wastes away time. i want to be awake and conscious as much as i can.
14. as much as i say i'm a cat person, i don't think i'm an animal person at all. after getting a dog, i realized that i'm not fond of the. the same thing happened when i got my cat.
15. i'm embarressed to tell people my dog's name (wizzer), so i usually just tell them his middle name (dale). whenever i do tell people his real name, they think i say wizard, so i feel a bit better about it. even though he came named, i feel like people will think i named him and judge me for it.
wow, i'm surprised i cam up with 15 interesting things. (well, i think they're interesting at least).
toodles, (:
new idea?;
hey there, it's been awhile, i know. i was browsing through a friends blog, reading through her 30 day letter writing challenge thing and it made me curious. i've never stuck to anything i said i would, whether it was a diet, a reading plan, etc. i found a 30 day get-to-know-yourself challenge, so i wanted to give it a try, so here goes nothing. wish me luck (: <3
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