i feel the greater part of me wants to give up on my challenge and just write a letter a day, to no particular person. for today, i'll just write little notes to the unnamed people. ya down, brah? (:
-thanks for being there for me and helping me through all of the garbage i've shared with you. it means a lot to know i am fortunate enough to have found a friend like you. i would trade anything for my bestest friend (:
-i know sometimes you think it's funny to make me the joke of the party, and even though i know you don't mean anything by it, it still hurts. my feelings get crushed everytime you think it's 'funny' to make fun of me. i'd greatly appreciate if you could find something new to joke about, please'n'thanks.
-i said i wanted to stay friends with you, but after hearing about the stuff you're trying to spread about me, i don't know if i can. it would kill me in every way possible if it came to that, but i can't put myself in anymore crappy situations. you think i have no mind of my own, the same with my best friend, and about numerous others too. just an fyi, i do have my own mind, you're just upset that MY mind said no to you. i wanted to try things again, but honestly, i deserve so much more thanomeone who talks crap about me behind my back. that was a punch in the gut. for sure. i expected more from you.
-i finally know what you felt. i finally know what hell i put you through. i'm so so sorry. like i told you before, if i could take it back, i would. the only reason i didn't leave at first is because i actually did have feelings for you. nobody believed me, they said i was trying to fool myself. i wasn't. i mean that from te bottom of my heart. i know why you did what you did, and i feel the pain you went through. it sucks, bad. you've given me a new appreciation.
i think that's enough for now. i'm gonna write more tomorrow. <3
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