Unpublished;

i have to sit here and act like nothing is wrong:
the emotions are flowing out of me, leaving me breathless. i don't know what more i could possibly do. i know you told me there was nothing there anymore, that it was merely a friendship, but with every passing second, it hurts more. you progressively talk more and more as the days go by. she slipped in right at your exact moment of weakness. you were stumbling over invisible barriers, the last things holding you back. you were 1 centimeter away from crossing the finish line to the ever-long race you'd been running. the thought of finally crossing the line overwhelmed you. it absorbed every sense of your being and made you blind to the world. that was the moment she slipped in and took over. you didn't matter in the least to her, but as soon as you were about to claim victory over a long, hard fought battle, as soon as she knew she would be lost in the abyss, she couldn't take it.

Written: Late November, 2011