never a better time to ask;

I found myself meandering through everything you've decided to share with the world. I found myself tearing up more and more with each word I read. You never cease to amaze me. Throughout the years, everytime you asked me to do anything, I never did it to my fullest. Everytime you asked me to read anything you had written, sure I did, but never all the way. I took advantage of the time I had you. I took advantage of it, and I never cherished the time. To be completely honest, I didn't know it would have to come to an end. I never fathomed the idea of you growing up and becoming someone else. I never imagined you'd find your one true love so quickly. I don't want this to look like I'm not happy or proud of you, because I completely am. I'm truly honored to have someone like you in my life to show me the way. Before writing this, I was reading your blog. I was rereading everything that I had just skimmed over in the past. With ever word I read, tears continued to form in my eyes. Why am I crying? Do you remember when I said I lost you? When I said that I felt like I got replaced? As I'm sitting here thinking about it, I never got replaced, you just grew up. That point in my life when my best friend in the world found her love killed me. I turned to you for everything. I looked up to you. We sat up all night everytime I came over and just talked. You were the only person that I spilled every single one of my secrets to. I told you everything. Sometimes I wish I could just go back to those days. I wish we could still sit on the couch and talk for hours on end. I wish you were still close enough where if I wanted to see you, I could. Your writings that I read earlier were amazing. They seemed to be full of emotion, full of passion. If you ever read this, will you tell me why you stopped? Why all of a sudden your passion changed? That's all I want to know.
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