practice round-take one;

this is the one place where i can truse my thoughts not be told out to the world. this is the one place i can tell my secrets to and i don't have to worry about them being spilled everywhere. this is the one place.


dearest friend,
through the past five years, we've been on again, off again friends. at times, we fight. actually, most of the time we fight. you said that we always end up friends again afterwards. this may be true for you, but it's not the same on the other side. i'm not the type of person to forgive and forget. sometimes, yes i do forget, but what good does that do? what good does not remembering your mistakes do? every fight we've had has punched me in the face and told me to let go. it has told me that the biggest burden in my life is weighing me down. time and time again, i find myself thinking of life. this friendship has shaped me to become who i am today. though there are times when i feel i'm not exactly where i want to be, i start to think of the good things in life. i start to think of the things that don't weigh me down. i'm oh so sorry to say that you aren't in that list. it breaks me to say this to you, breaks me completely. you've spilled your heart to me so many times. you've told me secrets that you haven't told anyone else. to be completely honest, i don't know why you would turn to me. now, don't think i'm going to put all of this on my shoulders and try to put a pity party on myself, because i'm not. if that's the type of person you think i am, you know nothing about me. the day i give this letter to you is the day my life is going to change. the day i give this letter to you, a huge burden will be lifted off of my shoulders. everything happens for a reason. every single person is placed in our lives to play a role. they are there to play a part. when it is time for them to go off stage, time their role in the play is over, they are done. that makes sense, yes? i feel your role in my life has come to an end. you've played your part, and it is time to descend off of my stage, my life. our friendship has been one of the highlights of my life. it always will be. i'm sure by now you're thinking that it's a big mistake what i'm doing and that i should just forgive you. i should drop my point and continue on with life. do you remember when i let my father go? do you remember when i told him enough was enough, that i was strong enough to go on without him? that was his sign that his turn on the stage was over. this is the same scenario with you. we will both go on with our lives. we will both have friends, family, boys, everything come and go. we both came to eachother and now we go. it's all apart of the circle of life. i will never forget all of the times we've shared together. i will never forget anything. you hold a place in my heart and always will, but i'm afraid it's time to let go. it's time to cut the cord holding us together. a clean cut is a lot less painful than one shredded over time. good luck with life friend. good luck.
sinceraly,
a friend.